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Sunday...

2006-08-07T09:44:00.000-07:00

Two sundays in a row has been special... Last week and just this Sunday.
Both: I have to wake up early, not to stay home the whole day, I'm with people, go home a little late at night, get to bed physically tired and sleepy... thanking people your with for that great day. Waking up Monday morning filled with a wonderful memories, staying long in bed and still thinking how that Sunday was... then smile then reminisce again then sleep...hehe.. :-)

Last Sunday: unforgetable... Really...

Just this Sunday: saya...
We went to Mayapa for an activity.
I missed the group, I missed Fr. GC, I missed the feeling of kaba, saya, pagod of being a faci. Everything went well on the activity. :-)
I missed dancing on the animation songs and laughing hard after the activity for our bloopers, the walang katapusang picture taking... as always

After merienda, tawanan, at walang katapusan pagpaplano ano na gagawin namin, we then decided to go to Don Bosco Canlubang to attend the mass. Being in that place is really something, I even said and joked a friend with this lines "hayy this place, it started here and it ended here..." hehe... nakakatuwang pa rin bumalik sa lugar na yun. :-)

I was also given a time to have a little kamustahan with Ron, then we went to the Grotto for some picture taking, then dahil dinner time na, we asked Ate Lolit on where to eat... saan? Sa TATLONG BUTAS... favorite place daw un ng mga seminarians at mga pari... umm... lahat kami naexcite kaya hala... sugod kami dun.
Madalim at lubak-lubak ang daan, ang ingay namin sa loob ng van at naglolokohan na wala na ata kami sa Laguna dahil medyo malayo sya.
Matapos ang road trip na yun, finally... narating namin ang Tatlong butas Resto.
Bakit yun ang name? may 3 tindahan na magkakatabi na halos pare-pareho ng laki at itsura, imagine a foodcourt but karenderia style. at sympre, papahuli ba naman kami, sugod kami sa may videoke at halos na-occupy namin ang isang store...
Imagine what happened next, hala papalit ng barya at pili ng kanta... concert na itoh! Song and dance ang gimik namin. Ang saya! Talented ang mga tao... tsk... :-) Lahat ata eh all out sa pagkanta at sayaw... kawawa si Jeff, ginawa naming concert king ng gabi.
Di ko na namalayan nakailang 5 peso coins kami. Minalat din ata ako sa kakatawa.

Dahil napagod lahat sa concert, pagdating ng aming order na pansit (ang dami, fiesta!) at halo-halo, hala... deadma na sa videoke, background music na lang nami sya at lahat busy na kumain. Ilang songs pa bago umuwi, Hayy, napagod kami but ang saya ng gimik na yun. Ang daming video at picture, ebidensya! haha...
Pagalis namin, sumumpa kaming hindi na babalik dahil sa aming ginawa...hahahah.... joke! masarap ang food at mura talaga.
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Well, salamat at maraming makabuluhang nangyayari sa dalawang Linggong nakalipas. :-)

Random...

2006-07-16T11:41:00.000-07:00

I wish I can contain everything in this blog entry. Sa dami ng nangyayari sa buhay ko, hindi ko tuloy maumpisahan... hayy...

>> Me: Yehey, I'm beginning to be okay. I really don't know why, sometimes I asked myself... Am I really okay? Or umiiwas or I'm just denying things... I don't know... really, but I'm happy that I'm surviving. :-) Yeah!

Salamat sa lahat ng umalalay. Sa dasal, sa pakikinig, sa payo at kung ano-ano pa. Salamat sa pressure sa work...hehe... salamat sa mga umunawa, at salamat sa mga hindi nagtanong ngunit nakinig at tinanggap. Salamat Papa God for always giving me a reason to smile, thank you po, I know you are with me all this time.

I'm happy, I'm choosing to be happy for what happened... I still don't know the reason on why... but I'm thankful.

Share ko lang: I've heard that when people get out of your life especially when you don't want to and you don't have any choice because they are gone, you don't have to be sad... besides the good memories those people left you, one better way is to acknowledge those good/positive traits those people have... then try to be like them, strive to learn those positive values, attitude, habits...etc they have.
(o my... mahirap ata toh for me, pero try ko na rin... Read: this means being disciplined, focus, objective, organized... waahh...hehe )

I know I'll be gaining more from what happened, but to summarize it all for now, I'm thankful! bow!

>> Work: Hayy, I'm tired! I think all of us from the team. I hope... matapos na itoh! Pero I should be thankful, I still have a job!

>> Kit & Airport Memory: ... Finally, after a long time of waiting and preparations, Kit already left for Germany then from there he'll be on board and go around the world... hehe.

We all did not slept that Friday night, @8pm inaannounce kc bigla na tuloy na flight nya Sat @ 9am. (bad trip na agency, why are they doing this!) This means we have to be in the airport at 6am. Dami inasikaso. Have to run from office to SM to buy stuff for Kit. Thank God at nadaan sa charm *hehe* ung manager ng ACE, bcoz at exactly 9pm they are closed, good thing they still allow me to buy inside at nataranta ako sa dami ng nagassist at buti rin SM grocery is open until 10pm. Panic buying... sa dami nang pieces per item. OA ko nga daw sabi ng nanay ko at ni Kit, hala.. baka wala sya gamitin sa barko noh at walang mabilhan. (comedy talaga ang gabing yun)

I can still remember how handsome my bro that day, wearing blue long sleeves, with neck tie and khaki slacks... kagalang-galang for the 1st time. :-) How can I forget this airport memory our family had, hayy... The hugs, the crying that even my bubwits did. Looking Kit walking towards the airport entrance. Hugging Kit's gf, then recently his GF told me that Kit started crying when he saw me hugging her, at hagulgol daw sya sa loob ng airport. 1 year din sya dun. Hayy, I always pray for Kit, I know naman na kaya nya, wag lang sana sya masyado malungkot dun. I'm so proud of him and he gave me a lot of reason to be thankful to Papa God.

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In everything... try to be thankful and you'll see the miracles in it.

Hope I can post some thoughts ulit sometime... hehe... muah

waah

2006-07-05T16:00:00.000-07:00

wala me maisip na title... gusto ko lang sumigaw! waahhhh.... pwede naman dito diba? hehe
Next tym na ung matinong post. Hopefully by then kaya ko na nga ipost. hehe.
Can you pray for me please? Ü
Muah

Trust.. and Haay Life!!

2005-10-19T07:41:00.000-07:00

Trust.. and Haay Life!! - Status ko sa YM kahapon at ngayon..
For how many weeks, lalong lalo na kahapon at kanina....iniisip at ipinagdasal ang Naga trip, kc naman gusto ko naman talagang pumunta at magserve kaya lang nagconflict sya sa ofc badminton games.. di naman sa mas importante ang badminton games kaysa sa Naga trip.. para sa akin mas worth pa rin ang Naga trip...

Kaya lang.. may mga bagay na hindi mo talaga macontrol.. at ano man ang gawin mo, hindi pwedeng sa lahat ng pagkakataon, at lahat ng tao ay makikiayon sa gusto mo... ayon.. nalulungkot lang me ngaun.. kc hindi ako makakapunta.. knowing na dalawa lang ang makakasama... Ginawa ko naman ang best ko para maiayos ang ang aking VL at sked, kaya lang hindi talaga pwede... so hindi na ito dahil lang sa badminton... waahh nakakaiyak... pwede ba umiyak?? haay life! Let go Kate.. let go.... HAAY LIFE!

Sabi nga ni Ate Irma, it was not meant to be ang be at peace.. sabi ni ate mouse, God wants me to stay here and dito magpacute... sabay ngiti.. hehe

TRUST - ala lang.. Trust na lang kay God.. ang tanong tama ba.. tama na ba ung ginawa ko??
Kinakain ako ng lungkot.. (dahil ba ito sa hormones.. cge blame it to hormones..hehe) bukod sa masakit ang ulo ko kahit hindi naman ako puyat... Trust na rin cguro sa 'kanya' ... ewan ko ba.. bahala na.. sana lang Papa God if everything fails wag na ulit ganun kasakit katulad ng dati ha.. ayaw ko na po ng ganun.. ang hirap po kc...

Share ko lang.. txt from a friend: " "i trust u" is a better compliment that "i love you"... coz u may not always trust d one you love... but believe me.. you can always love the person you trust for the rest of your life...

Mahirap ata ito ahh.. cge na.. susubukan ko talaga.. hayy...
Waahh.. ayon lang..... sana mawala na ung lungkot ko at sakit ng ulo... please...

Growing old but not growing

2005-10-10T06:34:00.000-07:00

Late ko na na-post...
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I'm growing in age but still not growing.. got it?.. ang labo noh.. ang labo kc ng utak ko.
Waahh. I'm 24!!! huhu.. can't believe, parang kelan lang magsastart pa lang akong magwork ngaun. gosh.. tanda ko na!

Enjoy my bday celebration, actually simple lang kc wala naman talaga akong pantreat... kaya ang mga friendly friends ang nanlibre... walang tulog kc direderetso from GY shift.

That week - Starbucks treat by Pareng Alvin

ThursPM - Mass & dinner @ Wendy's with Yuppeace Friends - Admer, Elson & Ate Lissa

Thursday midnight to Friday AM - simple coffee @ pantry with GY shift friends.. aww..salamat sa mga payo at kwento.. girls.. miss ko na cla...

Friday AM - straight from GY work; bfast with good friends Katie and Liezl @ RCBC Delifrance at ang mga lokah-lokah, nagyaya pa sa mall.. had my haircut.. (gift sa self - naks..)

Friday Afternoon - Cake with Family.. ayy katatakaw na mga bubwits.. at mga hindi nagsipasok.. bday ko daw kc.. mga pasaway na bata! hehe.. 3 oras na tulog

Mass @ GB with Luis then off to Mcdo Greenbelt dahil may surprise pala cla.. dahil sa namove ang sked ng mass at wala akong kaalam-alam sa mga plano nila, marami palang dumaan ngunit di ko na inabutan (mga fellows.. sorry po).. pasaway na bata talaga ako.. hehe.. salamat sa note sa note dun sa mcdo tray paper.. ang cute! at maraming salamat sa mga naiwan at nagantay, (mga ka-RM at neo) salamat sa rice cake, sa cake na totoo mula kina Mommy Olive, Ate Irma at Ate Maye... sa bday card, sa book mula kina Bong at She, sa mga bday wish at affirmation at sa balloons mula kay Mang McDo.. Ü

Ang nanay ko..nagbigay ng gift.. hanep.. kung ano.. secret.. ang lufet talaga.. napakapraktical.. sabagay kaysa naman ung mga gift nya ung nakaraan taon. ayon.. nakatago lang sa kwarto ko.

Ang daming txt..ung iba di na ako nakapagthank-you.. hilo at aligaga na ako na antok at pagod
Ang daming tawag sa phone.. at mga email greetings .. na hindi ko na din nasagot.. hayy...

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Bday wish... pera! haha... kidding aside, sana matapos na ung financial prob ko.. hopefully this year at makaraos and makaipon na me next year.. dami gastos..
Sana magka-work na ung brother ko... eto prayers ko lately.. medyo kc kapag nangyari to, solve na rin ng unti ung financial prob ko
Un iba.. bout family and friends and Luis na din.. sana lagi cla happy and healthy.

Ayon, for myself- sana magmature na me.. hehe... Medyo magulo utak ko lately.. sana matutunan ko pa ung mga ibang bagay, sana maging matatag pa me at sana di na ako masyadong mahurt sa mga nakakahurt na bagay.. sana malaman ko na anong gusto kong gawin, kung saan talaga ako magiging masaya... kung kanino at saan...

Sa totoo, mrami naman magagandang nangyari sa buhay ko for 1 year... marami rin natutunan... maraming bago.. bagong kaibigan, relationship, mga napuntahan lugar, mga activities na nasalihan, mga bagong responsibilities sa buhay.... maraming masaya.. marami din malungkot...

Bahala na kung ano meron this year.. ganto ata talaga feeling kapag tumatanda ng isang taon.. nakakapressure magmature at magGROW.. hahahaha...

MUAH

Hiyee

2005-08-01T03:11:00.000-07:00

Now lang nakapagpost ulit.. tagal noh.. tsk tsk.
Wala pa kcing maiisip. Busy lately.. sa kung ano-anong bagay... Ü
Wala lang.. share ko lang... I'm so thankful to God sa kung ano mang bagay na binibigay Nya..
Dahil sa kabila un, nalalagpasan at mayroon akong natututunan... malungkot ung iba, masakit ung iba, masaya un iba.. pero alam ko, ang lahat ng iyon may dahilan..

KATEH... Ü

Feeling so good..

2005-06-01T16:04:00.000-07:00

Finally..was able na makauwi ng maaga & sleep ng maaga..as in sobrang aga... yahoo... What a gud day! But I do missed 2 Yuppeace activities this week.. well.. hirap kc for the AM sked and hopefully after this week maluwag-luwag na bcoz done na ang work projects but gud thing was able to spend quality time with d bf kc school na sya starting today & done asikasuhin school needs of my kiddos at makasama cla sa bahay... waahh..Ummm... you see, balance, focus and priority.. soo hard for me to do, aligaga kc ako sa dami ng gustong gawin.. pero so happy that God is sooo gud na tinutulungan nya ako..

PIP - Performance Improvement Plan - work, work, work!!! need to focus and ayusin ang work.. the boss gave me an action plan, sana nga eh di na mababa ang aking appraisal this year

PIP - Personal Improvement Plan....

All these requires by Balance, Focus and Priority... waahh Papa God.. help me palagi, alam nyo naman na napaka-aligaga ko sa oras pero this time promise ko po.. ta-try ko talagang maging disiplinado at ayusin ang aking buhay... lalo na ngaun, kompleto na sya..... Commitment to my OWN LIFE - Family, Friends, Community, Career, Vocation. God, Self & others..

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COMMITMENTS: - a lot of people are afraid of it.. because u'll sign-up, because once you get into there, you can't just back-off then go when you feel like to.. you must stay!

Talking of commitments, not just on a relationship but simply but it is life!.. in work - you signed on a contract, with Friends, you give this not just by words but you stick into the friendship no matter what. Family, given, you'll do no matter what. Now.. being discussed on the community..

I remember he told me this: Being a commitment or making a commitment does not envade your freedom, kung hindi mas ginagamit mo ng maayos ang iyong freedom bcoz now PINILI mo kung saan ka magpapatali...

Why am I really talking about this, kc nga po.. I know God is teaching me a lesson to be a little focus on my life.. sa totoo ako ay taong.. wala akong plano.. come-what-may, walang focus.. okay lang kahit ano... walang direksyon ang buhay... hayy.... pero ngaun, gagawa talaga ako ng paraan at effort para naman maisayos ang aking buhay.. so help me God.. please.. please Ü

As I do this, may I be a better person and serve You as I spread your love to other people..
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P.S.. sana nga..sana nga.. at di ako mawala sa focus ulit.... waahhh

Choices

2005-05-25T19:35:00.000-07:00

When you hear the words Choice/s, choose... ang daming meaning, me galing sa dictionary pero para sa akin you can really really associate it into life, kakambal ng buhay at hindi kailan man maihihiwalay sa iyong buhay, into your daily what-so-ever life... Life in general requires a lot of choices... well ano nga ba ang wala.. papasok ka ba or hindi, gigising ka or hindi, anong susuotin mo, anong kainin mo, anong kanta ang papakinggan mo, magpapadala ka ba sa agos o aalma... 'mabubuhay' ka ba sa buhay o hindi...

kahit ung mga bagay na hindi mo control, maikakabit mo pa rin ang salitang choice and choose... you choose on how to react and feel, how you'll think on it, choose on how to deal, choose on how to make your own principle on it.. choose on whether to live on it or not, break or make it!

Ako?!?.. I've made a lot of choices in my life, some major as in kinda life turn-around thing, some minor at wala kawenta-wenta pero me effect pa rin talaga... some for the sake of it, some wala ka nang magawa kaya pipiliin mo na lang kung paano na na andun ka na, pipiliin kung ano ka sa isang sitwasyon at bagay... pinili kung ano ka matapos ang mga pangyayari

Well, sa dami ng nangyari, nangyayari sa buhay ko... eto ako ngaun, buhay at lumalaban pa rin, masaya sa kabila ng maraming hindi masyadong magandang nangyayari, naniniwala sa natural na kabutihan ng mga tao sa kabila mga bagay na ipinapakita at ipinaparamdam na di masyadong maganda at mabigat na pakiramdam sa akin... alam ko.. naniniwala at nagtitiwala ako na hindi nila sadya, hindi rin nila ginusto ang sitwasyon at ipekto nito.

Ang daming bagay ang iniisip ko ngaun, maaring sirain at pahirapan ako, maaring pasayahin ako... maari.. sa kung ano ang pipiliin..

Hindi ako bibitaw... hinding-hindi sa buhay ko.. kc alam ko kasama ko c Papa God.. dahil alam na alam Nya kung ano ang nasa puso ko... alam Nya at nauunawaan Nya. Salamat Papa God kc hindi mo ako binibitawan.. salamat kc andyan ka.. at alam ko.. ginagabayan mo ako sa araw-araw kong pakikisalamuha sa buhay.. salamat at nawala at bumitaw man ako, andyan ka pa rin at hinahatak ako pabalik... salamat.. salamat...

Masaya ako.. masaya pa rin ang buhay ko.. kaya ko.. kakayanin ko...
Maiyak man ako sa sakit dahil sa mga bagay na hindi ko naman intensyon na maging ganun, di man ako maintindihan ng ibang tao... pero alam ko sa puso ko kung ano yung totoo..
Gusto kong umiyak at sumigaw... hindi dahil sa lungkot at sakit.. kundi masaya ako sa kabila ng lungkot at sakit...

For this day: Thank you, sa munti at simpleng bagay na ibinigay mo.. salamat sa positive energy..

Life is a choice, Love is a choice... You make a choice
Sabi nga ni Fr. A.. Nobody force you to do it, you sign-up!
We'll then, I thank God for giving us the free-will and thank you for making my life sooo beautiful even life for me in reality sucks... nyahaha.

Gud Mawning.. Ü

2005-05-22T16:43:00.000-07:00

Hiyee.. tagal ko nang walang post.. sabi nga ng mga friend eh idelete na daw ang aking site.. yoko nga!.. nyahaha... tamad lang talaga me magpost khit sobrang dami ng pwedeng ishare at ikwento... as in!!.. hihi..

Isang napakagandang umaga.. talagang umaga, kc naman ngstart na ang aking 2 weeks na 6-2 shift.. hayy.. what's with the AM shift?? sabi nga ng mga ofcmates mas kabado pa cla sa akin sa AM shift keysa sa graveyard na 10pm-6am.. kc naman po.. talaga naman nakahirap kong magising ng maaga... matulog ng maaga... pumasok ng on-time (bad noh..) pero sa kabila ng 'fact' na iyon sa akin.. ito at maaga-aga ako dumating.. kinda late lang nga lang unti....unti lang.. 6:20 ata..hehe.. ayy..

While writing this entry.. eto me.. alone @ our department, ala pang support, done with the daily check, and the best of it... having coffee and pie.. yum yum..Ü

Hopefully as I start my week sooo beautiful.. i'll be able to face the challenges that will come along the way this week.. naks ang lalim noh..Ü

Hayy.. Papa God.. maraming salamat po sa lahat, napakarami kong bagay na ipinagpapasalamat.. sa napakaraming pangyayari at pagbabago sa akin buhay... sa kabila ng lahat, maganda man o hindi.. salamat po.. salamat sa pagmamahal.. Ü Tulungan at gabayan po inyo ako sa mga susunod pa na araw.

Have a blessed day! Spreading the gud mood and smile... ang dami ko kcing masasabi eh.. hehe.. kaya bye na muna... ÜÜ

bumisita lang..

2005-03-22T23:03:00.000-08:00

Ala lang.. feel like writing a new entry.. hehe.. dami ko ng dapat pang ikwento diba, my Pugad-DWTL activity and the talk is still on my blog draft.. di ko pa matapos.

My weekend activity pa.. the batangas trip..wala.. wala me sa mood magsulat... buti na lang at nakakaaliw basahin at tignan ang mga pics sa blog ni gailey.. nyehehe. peace neng..

Waah.. di pa me marunong magadobe photoshop, di pa ko marunong maglagay ng pic sa blog..waahhh.. wala me kwentang IT..

Ayy.. starting this week.. inaasikaso na namin un lakad sa Saturday & Sunday.. pati ung sasakyan.. ayy.. salamat na lang at mabait c Kuya Jess at ok na ung sasakyan nila Luis..(yahoo.. )

Sat - we're off to Batulao for the Easter Vigil.. well.. mukhang malabo na maaga kami umalis so di kami aabot for Fr. A's last talk.. agenda: dinner & coffee @ tagaytay then to Batulao for the mass & Alona's baptism

After that off to Nelly's House for the Alona's celebration & RM bonding... current count ng mga sasama.. 17.. !! ang dami noh...

I'm so excited for Sat & Sunday.. un nga lang I'm getting a lot of calls from people.. and nagiinvite pa till now ng mga iba pang ka-RM and ka-berks.. nagisip na din kami ni Nelly ng activity.. yahoooo...

2 meetings later.. wahh.. paano kaya.. hatiin ko katawan ko.. nyehehe...
Busy Bee.. ng pagoorganize ng gimik.. yahoo.. gusto ko toh... honest..

Ayy.. thank you Kuya Jess/Papa God at binigyan mo ako ng mga kaibigan na makakasama at talaga naman pong masaya ako.. kahit ngarag na me.. hehe.. Ü

See you... :-)

Do the talking..

2005-03-09T23:42:00.000-08:00

I've been doing a lot of talking to people since the start of the week. Started on Monday with a friend with unplanned topic of my dilema on a situation and making me realize pratical approach on my situation then later that evening till AM with a good friend again, this time pinagagalitan me about a situation.. aww..pero in some ways nakakatuwa kc ibig sabihin concern lang talaga sya sa akin.. nagulat lang me bcoz that's the first time we talk like that. Tuesday, another two.. one of the concern person and one is the a good friend from college. wednesday.. another again... another concern person again.. aww... all on the phone but not just the usual kwentuhan and update thing.. those talks makes me think on different situation.. ang gulo noh.. kc naguguluhan din ako.. I have a lot in here.. information overload na ata..

Tuesday night - got a txt from ate maye asking if I had a landline to call. Said I was still in the ofc and gave my office #. After 5 mins, phone rings...
Usual kamustahan from the bora trip then after a while, she explains to me sumthing bout an activity. I was just listening.. then she ask me if I can be a facilitator of the said event, said yes.. ask on when, di pa daw sure.. said Okay..then she said that part of the program was a talk regarding a relationship then asked me if I can be the speaker... Initial reaction... "Ako!?? As in ako talaga??!!??, ate naman c Kate po ito, baka nagkakamali kayo.. bakit naman me??" sagot ni ate Maye.. "ikaw unang pumasok sa isip namin eh, tapos sinabi ko na sya sa head ng program committe..approved na". At the back of my mind.. bakit naman ako.. ang dami naman iba.. gusto kong magturo ng ibang pangalan.. pero di me makareact ke ate maye.. kasabay kc ng pagsasalita nya at pagcoconvince.. dami ko na iniisip.. kung paano at ano ang sasabihin ko... Then I just said YES, why? Told myself na kaya ko toh, na I cannot compare myself sa iba para lang di ako ung mapunta sa ganun situation, that maybe there's a reason, they trusted and believe na kaya ko, then cguro nga, me reason.... un nga lang.. mahirap.. ang hirap halukayin ung mga bagay na ayaw mo nang alalahain.. un unang pumasok sa isip ko...
Di ko pa sya masyadong pinoproblema that night.. pero I called a friend saying na I'll be a speaker.. naalaska pa tuloy ako..hehe

Wednesday - while Gail and I are on starbucks (naloka kc kami kaya we go there to have some coffee.. money?? from bangenge..hehe) got a txt from Ate Maye, there will be a miting @ 6:15PM @ DB pugad cafe. Naloka me, house namin ang nakaassign.. so dapat maaga din kami to arrange the venue.

Arrived early @ DB, got chance to light some candles and say short prayers to the Sacred Heart.. regarding the person that I talked that day..praying that he'll do fine palagi.

Meeting - with Luis (the Rector of the Retreat and head of the youth group that will arrange the program), Ate Olive, Ate Maye..then got a txt from ate Avic, pumanik kami ni Ate Olive to arrange the venue and the sound system.. good thing dumating c Kuya Jong to help. Got back to the miting again, now with ate ging and ate irma...

SHOCKING.. pinaliwag na ung program proper ng maayos.. ayy.. naloka me.. then ang pinagpipilian dates, this weekend and next week..sabi ko sana next weekend na lang..kc para makapagready pa me.. nagmamadali kami so bumalik na ulit kmi sa taas para makinig ung talk.. (maganda ung talk Ü), after it, ngarag na naman.. kc inaasikaso ko ung mga guestlist for today's use, ung mga gamit then un friends na nagyaya na kumain plus ung miting.. ayy.. then.. nalaman ko din na ung date will be on Friday na.. overnight na kami.. aww...

You see.. I'll be giving talks to boys ages 18-25, all are street children na inalagaan ng DonBosco.. be facilator on the activities and sharing.. be back on sunday afternoon here in Manila from Canlubang, Laguna.

Then, on March 30 (yehey na move sya).. sharing on the community naman..
Well goodluck na lang and see u on Monday.

after boracay..

2005-03-08T05:26:00.000-08:00

Back on track.. work.. gising.. the bed and the first thing I see in the morning.. office and people I see.. I miss Boracay.. the water infront of us during meals... the sand we walk through, the places we visit, the shopping we did, the clothes we wear, the sun and water.. everything. Well, that's life.. atleast I give my self a long and fruitful vacation than none.

I still enjoy seeing our photos, problem now is on where to get money to print all those... ang dami kc noh...

Thanks to Gail kc updated ang blog nya palagi..hehe.. I sometimes give the link to some friends para di na ako magkukwento and me pictures pa kc.. sowee gailey..

I spend my friday night @ greenbelt starbucks with Alona, Jovan and Trish (jovan's pretty cousin).. went home @ 3AM

Saturday, OT.. office @ 10AM... finish @ 6PM, happy to be with Jonvic joining us for a merienda @ wendy's G4 with Ian, Jovan, Admer, Gail and Alona.
Watch HITCH @ 8PM.. cool movie.. like this one, makes me laugh and really a feel good movie...
10:30PM - have some talk with the YP friends @ 6750 Park...
11:30 PM - got a call from Jonvic, saying he's on his way to the office to check a problem (wawang bata so I decided na antayin sya).. good thing the group decided na makiantay and naisip namin magsisig sa makati ave..

WHAT A BONDING... imagine we drunk (6 of us) almost 1 case of san mig light.. wow.. lasing na lasing na me.. but I enjoyed the kwentuhan, the question and answer thing.. hehe

3:00 AM - Jonvic was with us na... have a sensible kwentuhan with him while he doing his yosi.

Went home @ 5:30AM... hinatid kami ni Jonvic sa haus...

Sunday.. sleep, sleep, sleep.. hehehe

MONDAY/TUESDAY - work and have a nice to have good/serious talks with some of my friends... awww... what a start of the week diba...

Un muna for now.. ala pa me makwento na iba.. hahahhaha

off for boracay !! Yahoo...

2005-02-24T02:24:00.000-08:00

I'm so excited and I just can't hide it... woahhh..I'll be in Boracay on Sat.. we'll leave tom @ 3PM for the bus & roro ride, after 12 hours.. I'm on Boracay na. Be back on Wednesday AM here in Manila.

Excited to take pics on my new cam.. hehehe

See you all..muah

papers, books and life

2005-01-19T23:58:00.000-08:00

It's been a long time since the last time I cleaned my room, the general cleaning thing.. now imagine how the hell it looks like. hehe.. Ü. Thank God for a 'unusual and unexpected' text message that makes me a little awake and uneasy coz I usually and should have spent my Sunday afternoon sleeping but I just choose to divert my attention and not affected by it and that person .. thus alas.. get my butt off my bed and started looking at my room and on where to start. I know I cannot finish cleaning and organizing all my stuff in a day..I started into this part of my room where a cabinet is placed and all magazines and some papers on a bags and folders are placed. I take off all the bags and folders and scan on it to see which I should put into trash and in my surprise, I forgot that all those are my print-outs on moving on, letting go, etc on hearts and healing articles and from femalenetwork forum. I browse on few and read.. ummm.. initial reactions.. It pops in me the memory how I used to have all those articles stuck into my head.. understand it word by word and put it in me, every meaning and concept of it.. don't get me wrong but really books and articles really helps you to feel better during the moment of reading it, gives you idea and makes you feel and realize it whenever you remember that you read it. But experience is still the best teacher.. everything happens for a reason.. to teach you and to shape you. now this words are really true. Ü

I love reading self-help book, just last week..after a long..long time.. I finally finish reading Tuesdays with Morrie (yipee. me natapos din me na book Ü, coz I used to read book then after sometime, get another and read then forgot the first one.. hehe) It's a very good book, an old man on the dying bed saying life's lession.Love that book, it is presented simple but so heart-warming. I read from Jim Paredes blog archives that he has he's books too.. looking forward on having it. I love books dealing with life in general, also more on pyscho-spiritual.. no more on that heart-ache survival thing.. hahahah..

Talking with friends and listening to their advice (unending and di cla nagsasawa noon.. love nila me noh?..hehe) during those times help too. But they always say that, I'm the only one who can help myself .. now I realize that good self-talk and prayers are very much important... being-friends and loving your-self in the process... aww.. Love-yourself.. I remember gailey with this words and advice.. :-) Well she's one you have this on her and really a strong gurl.. idol.. hehe. Going back on Loving Urself thing.. you may see it easy.. coz you can always and will always have yourself.. but gosh, for me it was hard.. at first.. but now, i'm happy and managing to give my self..slowly the love I deserve from me.

Well the ending of it.. put all those papers at a big plastic bag.. thank those person who wrote and share it. My friends who send emails to me and chats that I print.. (wahh.. see how pathetic I am before..hahahhah... ) and prayed that someone can use it... to recycle??... and put it on trash later that night.
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P.S.
ayy.. naku..nakakaaddict pala tong blog na toh. Dami pa susunod na isheshare..nasimulan ko na kc this one kagabi pa.

back online & some updates

2005-01-18T01:19:00.000-08:00

My last blog entry was December 2004, just after our x-mas party. A lot of things to share after the holiday but still i did not manage to get my fingers to type here..

2004 was an unforgettable year for me. That year I know and can honestly tell that my life and self falls deep on ka-dramahan. That year, I lost someone from mylife, cried a river, been pathetic.. ayy.. but the old cliche is still true, when God's closes the door he opens a window.. a lot of windows to tell you.. Ü I got a lot of new friends and activities as I've been busy with the community, friends and family.

I don't want to talk about the bad things that happened to me but I don't deny it.. I just have on me the good things and blessings after all that has happened.

I'm not good on writing and articulating my thoughts.. but this is something that came from my heart.. God is so good... really and all the time. Ü I can never really explain on how and why I'm currently in this situation and feeling this way, I just believe that God has something to do with it. I'm not totally healed and moved-on (waahhh.. ) but I survived and definitely will.. o diba.. hehe

I have a lot to be thankful for my life.. those people who been there during those bad times and would you believe that now I appreciate my LIFE, those I been through, my family, my close and good friends and even those I don't know but will need our care and help more than ever...

Now I believe on I CHOOSE to BE HAPPY phase.. hahahha

umm.. ang saya-saya.. hehehheheheh muah

Red Dress

2004-12-15T01:51:00.000-08:00

Thank God na natapos ng maayos lahat ng mga activities last week. Nakahinga na rin kami and nakatulog ng mahaba-haba.

After all those nakakapagod na prepration, everything turn out to be well. Although nakakalungkot kc di kami nakaattend ng mass sa yuppeace, we are able to enjoy both parties and dancing... The fashionista program and the dance that we have for the Yupis program.

But what made this day a little special compare to any days of the year is this RED Dress that I wore. Special thanks to Jory and Gailey for 'forcing' me to buy & wear it. hahaha.. you know what it's my first time to wear a dress and mind you, a little sexy dress. Ang sarap ng feeling that you feel so sexy and beautiful even for a few hours (thanks to Azi & MAC for the free makeup & to Alan of Piandre for the discounted hair coloring and free haircut and style) ohh diba, complete makeover. Buti na lang nakisama ung malaki kong tyan at di sya nagbloat.. Ü nagutom nga lang ako..hehe. Pero sulit lahat, plus the people's reaction coz they don't see me wearing such. hahaha...

Well, I'll try to post some pics later... muah.

My oh my...

2004-12-03T02:53:00.000-08:00

My oh my.. Life! Ala lang, sa dami ng iniisip kaya di ko na alam ang topic that I'll share. Thank God it's Friday, ended the week with not much of the works and able to drink starbucks coffee from our hard work @ the Bangenge Fund. . I feel good din at nabawasan na ung money na hawak ko, mahirap din magisip kapag weekend..

I'm expecting a lot of work next week.. not just office works but also bcoz we are the one organizing the community x-mas party, the ofc group fashion show, and sympre I need time din for myself, buying stuff for me on x-mas party.. gosh.. it's only 5 days... plus plus.. this is the biggest dilema.. mataba pa rin ako... huhu.. di ko alam kung carry ko ung susuotin ko.. I still have this big braso and tiyan.. har har har

Plus, we have not yet decided kung saan kami unang pupunta with the same time and date 2 x-mas party. Where will have our party, party party, the dinner, which 1st to go.. which program to attend.. if we'll got to mass for the Yuppeace.. waahhh..

You see.. my oh my... o well, wish me luck na lang..
Happy weekend.. :-)

My First Blog Post

2004-11-28T22:26:00.000-08:00

It's been months that I've been reading friends blog and Gailey & Jory convincing me to create my own.. What take it sooo long to do it?? Maybe because I'm too shy of having others knowing my thoughts and feelings..maybe bcoz I'm not really good in sharing some of it and acticulate that feeling especially in writings.. well well well.. now HERE is IT!! why?? not bcoz I'm bored, alone in the office and its raining outside and also not just for others to know me.. but for me to KNOW MYSELF even better... to archive those emotions, opinions, events, those silly and non-sense thoughts..hehe .. that I can read again and remember the memories in the future.. laugh at it or maybe cry again with it... :-)

This is me.. knowing me... a lot of sharings and stories.. a lot of those feelings...